Be fearless in the pursuit of what sets your soul on fire.
Soul-capturing story of a woman who chooses to become a boudoir photographer after finding self-love in her own boudoir experience.
Like any boudoir photographer building up women’s confidence and giving them an empowering experience is far more rewarding than I can ever express in words. Still, I would like to share my story about this incredible journey as a photographer. This story is something I have shared a little bit about, but it has a significant meaning as to why my passion is so strong when it comes to boudoir. It also allows you to see I am human, too, with feelings and emotions, not just some random person posting pretty pictures behind the screen.
When I began this journey, I had no idea what the outcome would be, but I knew with a fire in my soul that I wanted to gift women the power to love themselves.
The first time I had a boudoir session done, I was going through a whirlwind of emotions. I had recently had a miscarriage and was separating from my ex-husband. I felt unworthy of love. In many ways, I felt hopeless. Who would love a single mother lost from losing a child she will never get to hold in her arms? So many thoughts ran through my mind, and I wanted nothing more than to feel like my spunky and outgoing self again. My soul felt so empty. I wrote another blog more on that… click here to read it.
Then a friend suggested a boudoir; at first, like many of you may have thought, “What on earth is a boudoir,” So I pulled up handy dandy Google to search what “boudoir” was. At first, I was a bit shocked. “Like, what the hell are these women posing half-naked for?” “What is so empowering about that?“ I seriously could not understand why so many women were raving about this, but as curious as I was, I decided to try it. I was in complete shock when I looked at my pictures for the first time! I couldn’t believe the person I was staring at was ME! This experience captured my soul and gave me a new perspective on myself.
The broken girl who felt unattractive, unloved, and unworthy of anything finally started pushing all those words aside. It was like the pictures reprogrammed my mind. I was BEAUTIFUL; I was WORTHY of great things. I was LOVED! But here is the thing. Boudoir will not change your entire lookout of yourself if you are not ready to see yourself. There is still internal work that needs to be done before you can really appreciate the women you are.
These last seven years have been challenging. Soul capturing could be a word that seems that things in my life ran smoothly, but that isn’t the case. Many life lessons were tossed my way, and being a boudoir photographer, I did not get a break from the universe. Being a business owner is stressful but also rewarding nonetheless.
It can be a lonely place when you sometimes are the only one cheering yourself on. So many tears have been cried, heartbreak, endless nights of sleep, questioning myself, and lots of doubt. Sometimes, I have considered selling everything and completely stopping photographing altogether. I have allowed others to define my success.
When I should have never given them the power, in the mix, I let toxic people tell me what I could and couldn’t do with my own life and career. I have worked hard to make something of myself, but mostly to live and breathe this dream. The power and meaning behind my work speak volumes. My success has come with a price and hasn’t been easy, but I have made every effort to pursue what sets my soul on fire and continue to create a soul-capturing experience in my life and those around me. I know that my art is a powerful way for a woman to express herself.
It takes trust and lots of courage to do something like this. A boudoir session is one that requires a bit of courage. Each day I work hard to build a trusting relationship with each client. These women have trusted me to capture their most intimate selves. I do not take that job lightly. Allowing women to feel comfortable ensures the session is a success. When my clients are with me, they feel comfortable enough to open up about their personal struggles and their stories. Together we laugh and cry, but importantly the trust I am given is one I care so deeply about.
Trust is not easily earned, and I am always grateful to those who feel comfortable sharing their stories with me. Even though many think a boudoir session is about the images, it really isn’t. Women seek out ways to rediscover who they are, and when they find a place, they can be themselves. I have helped hundreds of women feel a little more confident in their bodies. Being vulnerable is not easy for anyone, let alone being vulnerable in front of a stranger, but my clients are not strangers. They are friends. I adore every woman who has trusted me to be their boudoir photographer and showed them their beauty through the art of boudoir.
I have met hundreds of remarkable women over the last ten years. Some are in powerful professional positions, like lawyers, doctors, school teachers, veterinary, law enforcement, firefighter, government personnel, soldiers, photographers, nurses, stay-at-home moms, and female entrepreneurs. Being a boudoir photographer has some great perks!
I’m fortunate to have the privilege to share this experience with so many women. Some come to me with deep dark stories where they wear their scars on the outside, and some wear them on the inside. Each story that has been shared has touched my heart and filled my soul. want nothing more than to gift more women the ability to love themselves. I want to share with them that their past doesn’t define who they are. That they are indeed capable of the great things because they are worthy!
Boudoir isn’t just about sexy poses. Or sexually express yourself. Though I love the bold and edgy look we aim for, it is not about sexualizing women. It is a way for them to express their inner women. Capture who they are and allow them to be open about their stories in a way they have never done before. Every client has a story. My art tells their story; only some stories are visible to everyone. It is a way for them to break down walls and take a leap of faith with me, not knowing what they will gain from their own session, but they believe in the power of what we create in our studio. I am proud to say I am a boudoir photographer.